It has been awhile since i updated so here I am once again updating.Nothing much has change.except the fact that unwanted things have been happening to cost the lost of trust.She said she love me.no matter what.I know I’m not the best bf you could ask for.I have the worst temper.But i do have feelings.You may not realise is but things have change.The fact that you contacted other guys,i have to accept.I have to live with it since I’m sticking with you.I’m just dissapointed.Not because of the things you do.But because of the things you no longer do.Not blaming you but maybe cause I have not been taking good care of you.

You no longer do things I want you to just cause you love me.You make jokes when I’m seriously trying to share things with you.You wanna say I take things too seriously?I tried sharing cause I want to but if its a joke then fine.We fight and fight but do we feel the same feelings?We may not understand each other but I surely notice things.You no longer fight for the sake of us.When I’m mad and putting down the phone,you’ll be mad at me just cause I don’t understand.Then if we fight,we have problems,you would run to your guy friends.talking,complaining things.You know i hate that.Just so you wouldnt do that & make things worst,i said sorry.I apologize for the fact that i don’t want things to get worst and you contact other guys.haish.

I’m just unsure if you love me.I can’t hold on to that statement.I’m not trying to go against it but facts are facts.You could watch movies enjoying with your bestie while I’m vomiting sick at home?You could ask me “Do I hurt you that much?” when I was speechless catching my breath with a heartache and tears strolling down my cheeks.Loving someone is not about who is doing the right or wrong things.Or give in or have an ego.Its not about not understanding each other.Its so much complicated.Its the heck care attitude of whether we understand each other or not.Its the fact knowing we always fight and never understanding,doing the wrong things to get each other angry but ALWAYS loving each other no matter what.& loving them for every second no matter what.haish.I just don’t feel the love from you anymore.Like you said,I’m the one always getting mad,scolding,not giving in,not understanding & always finding fault being to sensitive.I’m that bad huh.haish.I just which everything is crystal clear.